abnormal isn't good, is it?

At the request/pressuring of my mom, I made a doctor's appointment a few weeks ago. I've been having issues with dizziness, close to fainting for the past 2 years or so, but it's gotten a lot worse in the last few months. The visit was middle of last week. I got a call from my doctor's nurse yesterday... they want me to go in to see an actual OB/GYN because my PAP came back abnormal.

I don't do doctors. In fact, above, I said "my" doctor's nurse. He's not "my" doctor. I had never met him before. I don't have a regular doctor that I see. Because I don't get sick. In fact, the last time I was in to see a doctor was 5 years ago... before that, it was 7 years... and before that, it was probably for my 6 week checkup after giving birth to Eric...

I don't like going to doctors.
This is why.
Leave me alone, let me think everything is fine.
Because now that everything ISN'T fine, I have to wait a week for this follow up appointment to have them do ANOTHER PAP (which are awful and I hate them, but honestly, who does like them??) and then wait another week for the results of that.

I just want things in my life to progress along LIKE NORMAL. And now the worry of this has thrown a big monkey wrench in my normal.
And I am not happy.
I was raised with a saying that used to scare me, but now I get it, and I live by it:

IF MOMMA AIN'T HAPPY, AIN'T NOBODY HAPPY.
this momma ain't happy, folks... not at all.

I'm trying not to freak out, trying not to let my mind zoom to the worst case scenario, but how can ya not, right??

And to add to the pain in the ass of abnormal, I have another appointment tomorrow (set up at the original visit last week) for blood draw, a mammogram (never had one before, this should be fun!) and an EKG to try to figure out why I almost keel over dizzy every time I stand up. Doc said it could be a heart issue, so he orders an EKG... sure, whatever, add another thing to the list of crap for me to worry about.

I guess we'll see. but I'm not happy. I'm worried. And I hate that.